Note: If you’re just joining us, this is the fifth post in a series on my experiences with etheric implants.

Contents:
I. Negative Entities and Etheric Implants: An Introduction
II. The Blocking and Unblocking of my Crown Chakra
III. Hypercube In My Belly
IV. Heart Chakra Implant and a Retaliation Strike
V. Etheric Implant Causing Physical Problems
VI. Did I Swallow a Manhole Cover?
VII. Lifelong Problems of Unknown Origin Solved by Implant Removal
VIII. Negative Entities and Etheric Implants: Conclusion

There have been a lot of major positive changes since doing this work, that I’m not entirely sure about the direct cause of, but they have me elated enough that they’re worth devoting a post to. The first half of this post may read like a bit of a downer, or even like I’m complaining — that isn’t really the case. This is all in hindsight now, but I have to describe what things were actually like in order to show the contrast of how they’ve improved since finding and removing the true cause of the issues. Ideally someone with similar issues would see some of themselves in this article, and gain ideas on how to help themselves as I have. Then again, I never intended for this to be your average personal development blog, where I, the Grand Poobah of All Things Wonderful™, tell you how to reach my pinnacle of awesomeness — I’m still learning, I struggle with things, and I believe it’s more honest to portray the struggle along with the success. So onward we go…

I won’t sugarcoat this one — I believe my ability to give and receive love, relate to others, and process emotion, was severely fucked with from as far back into childhood as I can remember. At this point I do want to make clear that I had an average, American middle class, relatively happy childhood, and good supportive parents who I still maintain a positive relationship with (which may be one of the reasons I haven’t gone completely off the deep end by now). But at some point, something changed. The reasons I believe these issues were deliberately caused and not, say, an issue of mental illness, are 1. because I can remember very early on (like preschool age) being a lot better at managing emotions and making friends than the point things eventually reached, which doesn’t make sense without some sort of intervening event. And 2. because all the internal work I’ve done, and now all the discoveries and removal of implants with Gehenna, has solved the problems as if they never were — often shockingly quickly.

At some point in early childhood, I seem to have lost a lot of things that are supposed to be normal parts of the human experience. In short, I had to relearn, from scratch, something it seems like most people know innately — connections and time spent with others are good in and of themselves. Some examples that come to mind: in 1st grade someone gave me one of those “friendship bracelets” kids gave each other in the 80s. My only thought was “I’m a boy, boy’s don’t wear bracelets” — no concept of the intent behind it. Around the same time I remember a friend’s mom wanting to take us to see Snow White in the theaters — my response was “why? I have the book…” — no concept of going out with friends being a good thing. Something was causing me to push others away and close myself down in a way I don’t believe was at all natural, and by the time I figured out that this wasn’t a good way to live, I was too ingrained into these patterns to know where to begin trying to undo them.

I had nonetheless come a long way on this front by high school, mostly by observing others and trial and error, but I was still pretty much a mess socially and emotionally. Very much cut off from other people, and parts of myself as well. I spent years wrestling with the question of whether being separate from others in this way was just part of my basic nature that I would have to accept. In hindsight I believe someone or something was trying to pass off a lot of false stuff as true aspects of myself, and that if let go long enough, that would have integrated into my actual nature. I believe this to be the case especially after reading accounts of other metaphysically inclined people being isolated in eerily similar ways.

When the blocking of my emotional processing wasn’t keeping me isolated, I believe it also allowed the wrong kind of people to come into my life. Knowing on some level that I should have some sort of companionship, I’d end up with people around me who would take full advantage of my inability to sense how toxic they were. It would take me so long to process a reaction and figure out how to feel about what should’ve been obvious mistreatment, that by the time I’d realize the need to distance myself from such people, a lot of damage had been done. I’ve gotten a lot better at this and can now sense pretty quickly whether there are red flags with a person or situation, and have also done a lot of emotional clearing — but to this day, it’s not uncommon for Gehenna (who is, admittedly, the strongest empath I’ve ever met) to sense that I’m in a crappy mood, or have fallen into a funk, like 20 minutes before I do. “You don’t feel right.” “I dunno, I feel okay.” [20 minutes later] “Damn, I don’t feel right.” “See? SEE?!” It’s creepy I tells ye!

Speaking of the metaphysical, based on things I’ve heard from my parents, my natural abilities may have been tampered with as well. Apparently when I was very young I used to pop out with stories of conversations with dead relatives that I had never met, or even known about, though I have no memory of this myself and am not able to do anything like this now (yet?), even though I’ve been focused on developing whatever abilities I have for several years. When I first felt drawn to spirituality and metaphysics in my later teenage years, I processed things completely in a logical/intellectual way. It took several more years before I was able to be convinced that there were other ways to take in and process information. Though, oddly, something kept drawing me back to those subjects even though at the time it was more of a curiosity than anything I was actively practicing. This is another instance of having very limiting beliefs and strong mental blocks with no known origin — my parents have always been spiritual, accepting and reasonably open-minded; today I’m able to talk to them openly about most of the stuff I’m into.

In addition to the above, all my life I’ve had what I’d assumed before were neurological problems. I couldn’t focus. I’d get overloaded easily. I had no sense of direction at all. I would sometimes get disoriented. I had visual processing issues; scanning an entire scene I’d miss important information, and what I did take in would be misinterpreted. As with the other problems I’ve talked about in this series, I asked doctors for input, and was told there was nothing I could do but adapt.

As you could imagine, all of this really came into play when I tried to learn how to drive. When getting in the car, these issues even seemed to increase. For instance, I had a complete inability to remember how to get places — even places I had been many times. I would try to pay attention to streets and where I was going when other people drove, but after about thirty seconds of this, a few minutes later I’d realize that I somehow blanked out, a bunch of turns had been made and I now had no idea how we got there. I often said (without knowing anything about entities or implants) that it was like someone took a checklist of all the basic skills you need to drive, and in me they were all damaged or missing. It didn’t help that every time I’d arrange to practice driving with someone, plans would mysteriously fall through. When I arranged to practice with my then-girlfriend, her parents switched her insurance the day before so nobody else could drive her car. When I arranged to practice with a friend, there was an accident that wrecked that car the day beforehand (though thankfully no one was hurt). When I started planning to practice with a family member, I would come in ready to go, only to find them hammered drunk — relapsed alcoholism after several years of sobriety. I could go on with many, many similar instances, but long story short after eight years of this I finally managed to obtain a license and a car, and do well enough to get by with the help of a GPS system… though I was never what one would consider “functional” with it. Unfortunately in southern California where I grew up, it’s very difficult to get by without driving, and my social life was what suffered the most. I was becoming more isolated than I’d ever been, and between work, school, and trying to figure out how to work out my transportation woes, trying to rebuild my social life took a backseat.

Fast forward to my trip back to soCal for the holidays this year — where there was a major breakthrough. I’m pretty sure the breakthrough happened long before that, but since I can function perfectly well without needing to drive here in the UK, I wouldn’t have noticed. I went out a lot with my brother — and at some point realized I was remembering routes and directions without even trying to focus on them! It was as if some sort of internal compass I never had use of before had suddenly flipped on. He got lost twice — and I’m the one who managed to navigate us home. I felt like I could’ve easily driven myself, and had it feel natural. It’s hard to describe how this felt after a lifetime of not having these basic skills, but it felt very much like I was suddenly functioning “normally” after years of having those natural abilities surpressed to the point where I thought I just didn’t have them at all. Wow.

In my next post I’ll finish out this series with some final thoughts, insights I’ve gained, further reading, and some simple methods I’ve learned for dealing with implants and neg phenomena for those who don’t necessarily have well developed psychic senses.

–Palehorse

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